Another Valentine in Solitude...

..or so my post goes. Its that time of the year on the second month that this occasion happens. I'll not ramble much on what I do on such a day but I'll just fill this entry with lyrics from some songs I know.


My Heart So Blue
By Erasure

I've got her picture
It's there on the wall
I can't remember why I keep it at all
The doors are cold and all the windows seem gray
I write the book
There's so much more I should say

Wave goodbye
See my heart...so blue
Wave goodbye
Lost for you

And now it's over
I write it all down
No one to notice
One less face in the crowd
Our eyes are open
When it suits us to see
Dear God in heaven
Show no mercy to me

Wave (wave) goodbye
See my heart...so blue
Wave (wave) goodbye
Lost for you

I shed no tears
And there's no reason for shame
A small consolation
Hides a stone with her name
Just a victim
Still the light shines on bright
I've got her picture
Think I'll hold it tonight

Wave (wave) goodbye
See my heart...so blue
Wave (wave) goodbye
Lost for you (Lost for you)

Wave (wave) goodbye
See my heart...so blue
Wave (wave) goodbye
Lost for you

Wave (wave) goodbye
See my heart...so blue
Wave (wave) goodbye
Lost for you

Wave (wave) goodbye
See my heart...so blue
Wave (wave) goodbye
Lost for you

Wave (wave) goodbye
See my heart...so blue
Wave (wave) goodbye
Lost for you

Wave (wave) goodbye
See my heart...so blue
Wave (wave) goodbye
Lost for you

Wave (wave) goodbye
See my heart...so blue


Spiralling
By Erasure

I try hard
To put you out of mind
Every night alone
I'm thinking 'bout you
How can I avoid this
Pain without you
I won't cry
I won't be sorry no more
I know that this is something I'll get over
Maybe I can learn to love another
It's just a matter of time
A matter of time

Just because I lock myself in my room
It doesn't mean that I'm afraid to talk to
Those people I know that might have you seen you
No return
I keep reminding myself
I won't look back
Won't regret a single moment
I gonna mend this heart inside you've broken
It's just a matter of time
A matter of time
It's just a matter of time
A matter of time

Show me the way
They say safety in numbers
I lift up my eyes to the sky
And imagine a crowd
Of hearts that surround me
And give the me courage to die
Were you to weep
And lie at my feet
Then you'd wash all
My troubles away
And imagine the host
Of angels around me
That give me the courage to die

Victim of Love
By Erasure

-chorus:
I don’t wanna look
Like some kind of fool
I don’t wanna break
My heart over you
I’m building a wall
Everyday it’s getting higher
This time I won’t end up
Another victim of love

You say that I could
Show some emotion
That I’ve been
Keeping secrets from you
But I can see through
All your sweet talk
And all of your affection untrue
I’m gonna find you out
If I scream and I shout
You won’t break down my protection

Chorus

I’m gonna lock up
What I’m feeling inside
Ain’t no way you can
Break down the door
Cause this time I’ve learned my lesson
You can take this declaration of war
Step right back
Put on your coat and your hat
Gonna avoid all complications

Chorus

Oh L'Amour
By Erasure

Oh l’amour
Broke my heart
Now I’m aching for you
Mon amour
What’s a boy in love
Supposed to do

Looking for you
You were looking for me
Always reaching for you
You were too blind to see
Oh love of my heart
Why leave me alone
I’m falling apart
No good on my own

Oh l’amour
Broke my heart
Now I’m aching for you
Mon amour
What’s a boy in love
Supposed to do

Why throw it away
Why walk out on me
I just live for the day
For the way it should be
There once was a time
Had you here by my side
You said I wasn’t your kind
Only here for the ride

Oh l’amour
Broke my heart
Now I’m aching for you
Mon amour
What’s a boy in love
Supposed to do

No emotional ties
You don’t remember my name
I lay down and die
I’m only to blame
Oh love of my heart
It’s up to you now
You tore me apart
I heard inside-out

Oh l’amour
Broke my heart
Now I’m aching for you
Mon amour
What’s a boy in love
Supposed to do

Oh l’amour
Broke my heart
Now I’m aching for you
Mon amour
What’s a boy in love
Supposed to do




Always Breaking My Heart
By Belinda Carlisle

Is this what you want
Every finger points at me
This might be funny
If it wasn’t such a tragedy
After a while
It gets harder to smile
And pretend that things are ok

So when you need the in the middle of the night
I won’t be there cos you’re always breaking my heart
You’re always breaking my heart
You always tear it apart
Yeah oh yeah

So cross yourself now
Get down on your knees and pray
But no powers from heaven
Could ever take the darkness away
I’ve tried climbing the walls
But you’ve built them too tall
So it’s time I walk away now (walk away now)

And when you call me in the middle of the night
(of the night)
There’s no one there cos you’re always breaking my heart
You’re always breaking my heart
You always tear it apart
Yeah yeah yeah

Reach out a hand to hold
Ain’t it sad when the distance grows
Two hearts cling to their fates
Remember that first embrace
But I can’t worry anymore


The first four songs up there can sound pretty depressing but that's how I feel at times. The last song is pretty more in tune about moving on without looking back. I'll be fine. I am still living, still surviving as much as I can handle. More stuff which is not depressing next time.